Emotional Bank Account

I came across this very interesting topic and I feel like sharing with everybody. All these might look simple to us. But often, we overlooked on the simple things and don’t realize that the root cause of the major problem mostly comes from all these 'simple thing'.

What is Emotional Bank Account? It’s a metaphor that describes the amount of trust that’s been built up in a relationship. So of course the more you deposit you put inside, the more trusted you are. (Sama lah macam bank kan, nak dividen banyak, kenalah letak banyak skeet duit :P)

But how do we make a deposit into this bank account? Read further, you are about to discover all the techniques!!

Understand the individual. Trust me, it’s not as easy as snapping your fingers. It may take sometimes to fully understand a person. (or even worse, you will just never understand them) Try!! This is the keyword. Takde benda senang dalam dunia ni kan

Attending to the little things. In a relationship, the little things are often the biggest thing. So you might need to be a bit sensitive to other people here ;)

Keeping Commitment. Keeping a commitment or promise is a major deposit and breaking it is a major withdraw. Next time, think twice before you make promises. Okie people:)

Clarifying Expectations. The cause of almost all relationship difficulties is roots in conflicting or ambiguous expectation.

Showing personal integrity. Personal Integrity generates trust and is the basis of many different kinds of deposits.

Apologizing Sincerely. How difficult it is to say I’m sorry? But just say that you are sorry if you really mean it and not going to repeat the same mistake again. That shows the sincerity

The Laws of Love and the Laws of Life. You have to love a person unconditionally. Not because of how much money he/she have but for the person he/she is.

And hey, this is not for people in a relationship je okay!! Ni untuk sume. Relationship dengan kawan, bos, colleague and your family.

Sekian, tazkirah hari ini

**credit goes to Stephen R. Covey

It's not really a break!!

Yesterday, I am down with food poisoning.

What could be more worse than having a diarrhea during the fasting month?

Toilet is so my best friend. I wish to bring my pillow inside the toilet so that I can just spend my time there and do the business at anytime my stomach need to. Without the need to rush to the toilet like every 20 mins. (maybe less than 20 that bile time peak sakit perut tu)

I don’t dare to eat anything and yes I’m fasting as usual. (Gigih tak saya berpuasa :) ) But towards the evening, my whole body sangat lah weak. Feel like macam nak pengsan je.

Thank god it’s over today!! Even saya tak ke toilet lagi, but my body still weak kesan dari pergi ke toilet secara melampau.

p/s: It’s not because of the karipap pusing yang sedap or chocolate cake with ice cream on top. Until now, I still couldn’t figure what exactly have poisoning my stomach. :P

The memory

Any of you ever look back...and think about all the punishment that you had in school? I bet you do.

I feel like I’m back in school again. Why did I say so? Coz I start having all the punishment again. But this time I’ve got to punish people. It’s a great feeling.

I have a discussion with my team member just now. There are a few times that they accidently speak in Cantonese and Mandarin. So when they realized, they will translate again or otherwise Boon will voluntarily translates it for me. (rasa macam handicap plak, kena ada translator)

It becomes more often. (Probably sebab saya tak join diorg lunch lagi, so it comes naturally to them to speak in their own language) I then stands up and said, “I want to make a rule here!! Whoever that speaks in any language that I couldn’t understand, will have to pay 1 ringgit” Hahaha. (Seronok hati saya)

They slipped still (but less), and I start counting my ringgit. Kaching..Kaching.. I can hear all the money coming in to my pocket!! (Tapi saya tak kutip pon duit2) If ever I did, dah boleh beli mcd dah tuk berbuka nanti!!

p/s: Does this rules sound familiar to you, en azlan? Hehehe, Empat ringgit!!!

On something over unrelated topic:

Saya dah jumpa karipap pusing yang sedap, dijual berdekatan dengan ofis saya. Yeah. Perfecting my buka puasa!! (tapi mahal!!)

Obsession

Well, I don’t know what has brought me to this obsession. Asked if this really an obsession? I don’t really have the answer to that question.

I used to be 46 kg-ies early this year. I was terribly heartbroken that I felt to commit suicide. Thanks to my friends for being there for me and brought me out of that misery.

Then I’m back on my feet again and this time I’ve added 6 kg-ies to my weight which makes my bmi fall under the healthy scale. I don’t feel quite comfortable with the so called new body of mine. I just feel fat, especially when Boon starts teasing me about how my body seems to be mengembang to him.

He doesn’t meant to be mean, he just want me to be aware with my own body, so that it won’t over mengembang. I guess I should be thankful to him.

I then start control my food intake, Nope, nothing extremely. I just avoid taking fast, junk and sinful food as much as I can and start to have a healthy lifestyle (speaking of healthy, saya rindu nak makan salad, with Italian dressing)

But to be honest, saya pernah terfikir nak makan herbalife tau. (Hard to believe, aite?)

I weigh myself last week, and I am now 49 kg-ies. Deep down I feel like dropping more (Now you know, why I called it obsession).

The only thing that stops me from doing so is my butt seems to be invisible now. Already I have very little bump to start with and now it is hardly noticeable. Haih. So I guess I better stop before it becomes macam papan kan.

Nevermind, hopefully I'll be able to pack on the kg again come hari raya ey?

You Hungry?

Today, I’m exceptionally hungry and lazy. It’s just awful, I feel so sluggish at work. Everything moves at a much slower pace. Huh, kenapalah saya tak keja kat Selangor?

So what did I do while slowly trying to get on with work? I feast my eyes with the tops from Forever21 and topshop online. Hahaha. Nasib baik dia tak der buat delivery dekat Malaysia. Kalo tak, God knows what will happen.

Yesterday we all (my team) went to body massage together somewhere in Sri Hartamas and followed by Buka Puasa at Souled Out (saya sorang jer pon yang pose). To be honest, I don’t quite like the massage but the food is like heavenly heaven. Tak la sedap sangat but you know la when you are hungry, everything taste sooooo yummy. I love the drinks, dragonfly (a mix of a few fruits and dragonfruit) and lemonade berry is just awesome.

We ordered too many appetizers, so when the main course arrived, I can’t really take it anymore. To not waste the expensive food, I cut it into pieces and put into everyone’s plate and Boon has to eat the most of my food. He gets annoyed with me that he said, “If you enjoy cutting the food soo much, you should go to the kitchen and help them instead”. Hehehe.

Hehehe. Now that I’m feeling very hungry, I’ve started thinking of all the food that I wasted yesterday. Actually, I really feel like eating a choc cake with a vanilla ice-cream melted on it.

Saya lapar!!!!

My first maternity blouse

I wanted to buy a new top. Just realize that I din go shopping for like ages (Okay, I’m just exaggerating on that). I restricted black from my choices and Azlan just make things worse by forbid all the ‘kaler-kaler gelap like grey n choc’. So we went to look for my top. But nearly every boutique that I went to, all that caught my eyes is none other than black. Haih, it’s really tempting to get all those but thinking of I have so many blacks in my wardrobe and because of that, people hardly notice I change my clothes. In contras if I want to, I can wear all of my clothes by not repeating any of them for at least 45 days (maybe more). Enough reason why I should restrict myself from getting a black top, huh?

Truth to be told, Azlan and I have a very significant different in taste when it comes to clothing items. I like more to kind-of-chic-style while he prefer something plain and simple which he said can be easily wear at anytime and anywhere. Hahaha. Isn’t that the reason why I have so many clothes inside my wardrobe? Specific clothes only go for specific occasions.

We finally found something that we both agree. It is not black of course, not too chic and not too plain. But the design can easily make you look pregnant. I fit fine in the S size, but Azlan insist that I should get M. Haih!! When I tried it on, I keep asking him of whether or not I look like a pregnant woman in that. And of course guy will always be a guy. They will say something that will please you. So the answer is definitely. NOPE, you don’t.

My top look similar like this except it's in white and long sleeves

To make sure that I do not look pregnant in that, I purposely wear the highest heel that I have in my collection, and the jeans that fit me the most (dengan tujuan, kalo org nak fikir saya pregnant pon, akan think twice la. Pakai kasut tinggi, tight jeans, tak kan pregnant kot)

But still I’ve failed coz I’ve got a lot of raising eye brow and followed by this comment. You look like you pregnant. And some just question me with, Are you already pregnant? Haih.. I think I will probably keep this top until I really am pregnant which I guess will only happen in another 4 more years (at least, tapi lagi cepat lagi bagus). Saya dah sukat dengan Ai Cheak, if I keep my figure until I’m pregnant, I could possibly wear this until the 2^nd trimester of my pregnancy.

I really don't think people will have that thought if I wear S!! Hehe. My first maternity blouse and…. I bought it way before I’m pregnant.

Mengarut di pagi2 hari

The feeeling of

**Insecure**

**Suspicious**

Leave me Alone!!!

**It's the choices that makes us who we are. And we can always choose to do what is right. When you choose what is the best for yourself, then live and stick with it. Never look back!!

p/s:Tell me people, What do you choose?.

Excuse...

Boon: Hey, if you are not fasting and want some food, I can help you to buy. But if you are fasting, I won’t help, coz I don’t want to be ‘berdosa’.

Boon can be a very funny person sometimes. Wait… did I say sometimes? I think I need to make a correction here. It should be most of the time.

Well I din expect that he will know this much about fasting. Like a girl will have an excuse for not fasting and it’s a sin for helping someone who’s ponteng puasa.

What a coincident, the next day after he told me that, I’m having my ‘week of the month’. Yeah!!! And ever since, he officially becomes my ‘food delivery guy’. He even helps to refill my water bottle. Thanks a gazillion Boon (Oh it’s you and Ai Cheak, btw).

Tak boleh berpuasa di F-Secure adalah sangat heaven!!! I can eat anything I want at anytime I like. Farah!! Saya dah terikut2 awak. Makan mcd waktu lunch di saat sumer org sedang berpuasa. Best kan!! Cumer tak sempat nak makan nasi beriani jer lagi.

But tomorrow everything will be back to normal. Saya akan kembali berpuasa and no more mcd/subway for lunch. :(

p/s: Saya nak pergi terawikh :)

Puasa

Everytime Aiman offer his food to us during this Ramadhan, we will tell him that we cannot eat because we are fasting. So yesterday, he was eating rice when my mum offers him some fish to go with the rice. You guys know how he replies his nenek? He said

“Nenek, tak boleh makan ikan. Aiman Puasa”

Padahal dia tengah makan nasi time tu. Muahahahahaha

Being me

I am having a problem that my brains and my word often not synchronize. I’m thinking of something else but what comes out from my mouth is totally something that is not rhyme or even synonyms to what I have in my mind. I realize that it’s getting serious day by day. I slipped with my word easily especially when I tried to say something fast. Example:

Case 1:
Me: Eh, ada polis la, cepat pakai “spec mata” (when what I really meant is cepat pakai “seat belt”)

Case 2:
Azlan: Nak tissue.
Me: Amikla, ada dalam "fridge" tu (when what I really meant is dalam “beg” tu)

Case 3:
Me: Ni apsal ni “panas bontot” sangat, X der keja nak buat dah (when what I really meant is “Ni apsal “gatal tangan” sangat)

And the list goes on……

p/s: Next time when you get into your car. Don't forget to buckle up your spec mata okay people. Ngeee :)

Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin’ down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

I love this song. How I wish that somebody will tell me that “A girl like you is impossible to find”. Sigh. And thanks measa for the mp3. I’m so in love with it!!

It’s every girl dream to have their own-happy-ending-love-story. But I doubt that it is possible for everybody. Love is a two people thing. It takes both to make it happen, not only one person. So how hard should one tried before he/she give up?

To me love is to pledge you to a position no matter what it cost. When you’re in true love with someone, you’re really in commitment with them. Obviously, you have to have the chemistry piece going on. You’ve got to have that attraction. But that’s just the first layer in a relationship. Beyond that, you have to move to the step to commit yourself fully to the other person. I think so often we think we can feel our way into commitments, but that’s a fantasy. Feelings get funky and, if they’re not tethered strongly to commitment, they can quickly derail a relationship.

The question, though, that begs to be answered is: How can you be sure that when u hears “I love you” it’s the real thing?

In any relationship, trust is very important. When one sows a seed of doubt in the relationship, the foundation is shaken and paranoia sets in. It is good to be on your toes- to stay alert and to be aware of your surroundings, but it’s tiring and stressful to constantly battle the fear and insecurity. Yes, it’s a helpless feeling.

And yours truly is crying when she writing this entry.

Selamat Berpuasa

Di bulan Ramadhan yang mulia ini, I would refrain myself from

• bercakap buruk tentang org lain, even hati saya amat melonjak2 to blog abt people who live by their own definition of cool and think that they are the most coolest person because of that. Yuckssss!! Naaahhhh
• Scolding people atau dalam erti kata lain cuba mengawal kemarahan :)
• mengawal berat badan saya.
  
• mengawal expenses saya (which includes shopping)

Selamat berpuasa people!!!