Monday, January 3, 2011

Cita-cita saya

Heard this topic on fly.fm on my way back from office this evening. Typical question to be answered when we was in Primary school. Immediately I try to recall what was my cita-cita when I was a kid.

I've always wanted to be a teacher when I was in primary school. i believe almost everyone have this as their cita-cita back then. Don't you? and when I was in form 4, it change to Accountant when i realized that I love calculation.. or rather good at it :P haha

but then, when i went to matriculation, I was in physical science stream, so accountant was out of a question.. and there I was, going with the flow, without any cita-cita in mind.

Within that one year, I've developed my interest in Chemistry subject. Seriously that is the best subject ever. It doesn't need a lot of effort for me to score in that subject as when you have interest in something, everything turns out to be so easy.

Application time...
It's time for me to decide about my future. I was contemplating between chemical engineering and lecturer in chemistry (of course chemistry, it's my favorite subject). and I know I'll be doing well in lecturing too, ask my friends, they will be a good testimonial in case you have doubt on this.  and right before I submit the form (my zaman still use paper form tau, tak de internet2 ni), I call my parents (it something big which involve my future, of course I need someone approval, right), and my dad went against the lecturer and also the chemical engineer as he claimed that it's hard for girl to have to work in a factory and usually they won't be hiring girls as well for that position, to which i buy the story.

He ask me to study computer science as he said he wanted me to be like my uncle, who he thinks doesn't really need to work hard and earn big money..

and guess what people, I've changed all my choices right away and applied everything in computer science with my first choice for software engineering in UPM (feeling ala ala engineer la sikit kan) though i don't quite like it. and hope is free, right people.. i've put the last choice as chemical engineer (choice no 9), hoping that if it's meant for me, it will always be. Pfft..

and that's how I'm ended in this field and frankly. I have to say that it was not easy for me during my study time, but i believe and always believe in one thing, whenever there's a will there's always a way and with a high determination and a  pray to Allah  plus additional pray by your loved ones (family who always want me to succeed) there is no obstacles that can't be removed.. and another thing that I've always tell myself last time, bersusah2 dahulu, bersenang2 kemudian.. alhamdulillah, saya tak lah sangat senang tapi tak juga susah sekarang.

I am so thankful to my dad for who I am today and also to my family who definitely has been through a lot in making sure i get through what I've gotten through, if it's not because of them, I wouldn't be where I am right now. *wiping tears*

Not that I'm saying software engineering is far better than other cita-cita I've ever had... but it is to me the best choice. No i don't really earn big money but I have to say that ....

My life is good....

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