Sunday, January 9, 2011


I wonder how organize are you people out there?

I'm busy looking everywhere for my Master degree offer letter and couldn't find it anywhere.

and I wonder how does Azlan manage to find his PTPTN offer letter which he received like 9 years ago?

I sometimes (or always) didn't pay enough attention to something that I consider small little things.

and speaking of this, 5 years ago, I invested my money in this unit trust thingy. I trusted people so much that I never bother to do follow up after the investment. I remember that I actually invest a thousand ringgit more that what is stated in my account to which I only realized after a year of my initial investment. Too late, I do not have any evidence that I actually give more to that person. I gave him cash by the way.

but I might be wrong, I might really invested that much but somehow thought I gave more. Who would be so bad taking people money right.. No?

and what is more suspicious, the person never contact me after that night (the night i handed the money over, and I do remember signing another blank form coz he claim it's for back up, in case anything)

but again, I might be wrong.. Sigh!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

updates? no more

no updates again..

class started and as usual I'm busy with a few stuffs.

and no, it's not an excuses. It's real this time.

I'm working on the proposal.

and no, not a wedding proposal *clear throat*

it's thesis proposal. Tell me why do i do my master again...

Huge sigh!!!

Monday, January 3, 2011

Cita-cita saya

Heard this topic on on my way back from office this evening. Typical question to be answered when we was in Primary school. Immediately I try to recall what was my cita-cita when I was a kid.

I've always wanted to be a teacher when I was in primary school. i believe almost everyone have this as their cita-cita back then. Don't you? and when I was in form 4, it change to Accountant when i realized that I love calculation.. or rather good at it :P haha

but then, when i went to matriculation, I was in physical science stream, so accountant was out of a question.. and there I was, going with the flow, without any cita-cita in mind.

Within that one year, I've developed my interest in Chemistry subject. Seriously that is the best subject ever. It doesn't need a lot of effort for me to score in that subject as when you have interest in something, everything turns out to be so easy.

Application time...
It's time for me to decide about my future. I was contemplating between chemical engineering and lecturer in chemistry (of course chemistry, it's my favorite subject). and I know I'll be doing well in lecturing too, ask my friends, they will be a good testimonial in case you have doubt on this.  and right before I submit the form (my zaman still use paper form tau, tak de internet2 ni), I call my parents (it something big which involve my future, of course I need someone approval, right), and my dad went against the lecturer and also the chemical engineer as he claimed that it's hard for girl to have to work in a factory and usually they won't be hiring girls as well for that position, to which i buy the story.

He ask me to study computer science as he said he wanted me to be like my uncle, who he thinks doesn't really need to work hard and earn big money..

and guess what people, I've changed all my choices right away and applied everything in computer science with my first choice for software engineering in UPM (feeling ala ala engineer la sikit kan) though i don't quite like it. and hope is free, right people.. i've put the last choice as chemical engineer (choice no 9), hoping that if it's meant for me, it will always be. Pfft..

and that's how I'm ended in this field and frankly. I have to say that it was not easy for me during my study time, but i believe and always believe in one thing, whenever there's a will there's always a way and with a high determination and a  pray to Allah  plus additional pray by your loved ones (family who always want me to succeed) there is no obstacles that can't be removed.. and another thing that I've always tell myself last time, bersusah2 dahulu, bersenang2 kemudian.. alhamdulillah, saya tak lah sangat senang tapi tak juga susah sekarang.

I am so thankful to my dad for who I am today and also to my family who definitely has been through a lot in making sure i get through what I've gotten through, if it's not because of them, I wouldn't be where I am right now. *wiping tears*

Not that I'm saying software engineering is far better than other cita-cita I've ever had... but it is to me the best choice. No i don't really earn big money but I have to say that ....

My life is good....

Saturday, January 1, 2011

G for .....

i'm ending 2010 with purchasing something wise for the first time.

changing my mind from buying coach handbag to this....

well at least, i know the price will go up and up and up and up..
thinking of buying more :) should i or should i not..

Thursday, December 23, 2010

101 collection

Currently on this.

Real Leadership by John C. Maxwell

So much things to learn, so little time.
If only Doraemon really exist, I would like to borrow his tape which can makes me good at everything.

*snap snap* let's get back to reality!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010


between the people that you love and
people that love you.

Which one would you choose??

**beremosi lepas tengok cerita cinta Kirana.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010


decided to make a cupcake last week complete with the icing decoration and all. Turn out I fail miserably on the deco..

never really thought that it was that difficult to draw on a cupcake. like really difficult!! already i'm not creative and controlling the cream just worsen the talent.

Should i give up.. or try harder next time?

p/s: no picture coz i'm too lazy to transfer :P